Archive for October, 2011

Circus freaks

Posted: 10/25/2011 in life
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So we just spent a good twenty minutes with Chase being silly, wrestling, and quizzing him on animals and their sounds, counting, body parts and faces/moods.

This kid is way smarter than he lets on day to day. It just goes to show you that I need not worry about nanna not being the best at doing learning interactive stuff while watching him.

We did put him in daycare 2 days a week at a friends house. It’s made a big difference.

Anders has decided when he has too much homework he will “forget” it in his locker that way he had more time for playing with friends. The result….pissed off parents and no more play dates on school days. Dumb shit. I love how kids know everything and think they won’t get caught.
Hello! I did it already….everything you do or think of doing I’ve done, and I will bust you. You’re eleven, and dumb as bricks.

I wish I could send them both away until they are 22 with college degrees and non douche bags……..keep dreaming.


Posted: 10/20/2011 in life

I re read 3/4 of this blog and I had and now see I sort of lost a lot of great people disappearing 😦

And you can SOOOOOO tell I’m bipolar ha ha.

Well The kids are growing in leaps and bounds and I have quite a bit to tell etc. The best part?? I got a smart phone, wordpress has an app…I no longer need to sit at a computer to blog 🙂 LIKE!!!!


Posted: 10/19/2011 in life

My kids are being good, my house is clean, it’s quiet…what’s the catch?
I’m sure in the middle of the night the monster will wake and feel terrible cause he’s sick.

Such is life.

How do you get passed something

Posted: 10/19/2011 in life

I’m angry, very angry. I feel Lost and alone and broken and unappreciated and unloved. I feel like a failure.

I want to be happy I want to start over, move passed the crap and learn to be happy again. I don’t know how to do it.

How do 2 people go through turmoil, anger, resentment, general bullshit to the point that is all their is and get past it? I feel stuck in a vicious cycle. In limbo. Fix it and move on and be happy or end it and move on and eventually be happy. HOW does one move on together? forgive, forget and never ever bring up all that anger and pain??

I do not know anyone who has done it, no one. Everyone realizes it is easier to quit, give up and move on. It is in some aspects, especially in the forgive and forget, no need, it’s over no need to forgive and work at things. NEXT!!!

I want to “shit or get off the pot” so to speak. Nail down which it is and figure out how in the hell to go about doing it.

Anyone gone through some serious anger resentment issues with a loved one and actually moved on with them and had it work??

I’ve forgotten many things over the last 2 years:

How to smile and mean it

How to love people whole heartedly

how it feels to be loved, because I don’t feel it

How it feels to have medication that works for me

what I haven’t and will never and never did forget…was how to feel broken



the definition of insanity: doing the same thing again expecting a different outcome….only 8 years apart exchange the man in the story and add another young son.